Sunday, February 24, 2008

I was Wrong .... ?

My suspicious heart could have lead me to nothing? Is that what this means. Im ever confused. God I feel awful. All I want is to be with Billy and something so stupid could mess it up.

I hope not.

Im terribly sad over the whole thing. I hope I hear from him later tonight. I need some reassurance.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Since V-Day and Before that day

>=/ God knows what that day was really based on and what really went on his Valentines day. Now this is some shit!

I will find out. Things like this cant stay in the dark for long... Im not stupid

Too much has added up to something huge. There is something not quite right with the situation. Like I said I will find out sooner or later. and well looks like sooner than I thought from how things are going lately.

If anything is going on it needs to end now. I'm just to grown for this. Who does he think he is. Not slick that's for damn sure!!!!!

>_< HOW COULD SOMEONE DO SOMETHING SOOOO DISTGUSTINGLY STUPID AND HURTFUL!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

2/14 On 2/10 = O Billy and I Celebrated Early -

Since he has to work that day we spent "valentines" day last night about like 2am-3:30ish. :) it was great seeing him. He gave me a sketch book, a box of 16Crayola Crayons, 2 drawing pencils, a note, oh and I almost forgot to mention how he drew a picture of a ducky and bunny on the first page of the sketch book ^_^

I love you Billy!


I gave him cookies that I baked myself, 4 cute drawings I colored from coloring books, little chocolates, 2 pink candy canes, 2 puppies kissing (us) lol, a cute little box of goldfish crackers.

I Love my Billy. I hope we move in together soon!


This song reminds me of Everything pleasant we have to share in memory. I dedicate this song to him.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

I dont know ...

I feel really sad today. Maybe it's just today but a lot of little things are bothering me. I dont think I'm wrong.

He asked about my day. It made me feel a little better aside of the other things that made my day bad, but then he inturrupts me to talk about his day which i never mind to hear about but -_- i dont know it made all the difference today. I actually had stuff to talk about and he just pushed it aside. I havent been feeling special or important.

this is bad. my heart is aching :<